turning sides in lonely night

Turning sides in bed is a new normal

I don't force myself to sleep now

Had done it million times already

Efforts of sleeping get wasted

Night by night in the black nothingness.

Of course this was not like this,

When we used to sleep side by side.

But it started after your going away that

My chest misses the tickle of your fingers

My hair miss the strokes

Of your sweet hands.

My cheeks and lips miss 

The soft kisses if your lips.

Laying in bed, thinking of you

The night walks all way with me,

And my thoughts of you.

In morning I beg forgiveness to your reminisce,

I preserve the eternal requiem of yours

For the coming night.

you never came

I sleep in night and suddenly scream

I sweat and frightened of the nightmares I see.

That moment I wish you come,

take my sweaty head into your lap

And dab my forehead slowly, and

Put your thin index finger on my lips,

To quell my sobbing.

I wish you come,

And lie beside me and

Caress my hair and 

Lull me, and sing me to sleep.

But my wishes never came true and

The portion of bed remains empty,

I keep screaming for endless nights.

I keep waking up in the middle of nights,

Full of sweat and a fear deep in my heart.

I get through that pain everyday

Which cut opened my wound,

And I dithered with pain.

Still I am alone in my apartment,

Waiting for you.