blazing loneliness

Something at me stares fast,

which leaves me in fear and aghast

It tends to harm me,

it sometimes threatens me

I live in my life in terror.

It follows me wherever I go,

It imitates whatever I do,

It often looks at my body,

with eyes red and glance shady.

I run back home with fear

it shoots me with whetted spear.

I fall down and I scream,

waking up I realise, it was my dream.

I contemplate what had me chasing,

it was nothing but my loneliness blazing.

you never came

I sleep in night and suddenly scream

I sweat and frightened of the nightmares I see.

That moment I wish you come,

take my sweaty head into your lap

And dab my forehead slowly, and

Put your thin index finger on my lips,

To quell my sobbing.

I wish you come,

And lie beside me and

Caress my hair and 

Lull me, and sing me to sleep.

But my wishes never came true and

The portion of bed remains empty,

I keep screaming for endless nights.

I keep waking up in the middle of nights,

Full of sweat and a fear deep in my heart.

I get through that pain everyday

Which cut opened my wound,

And I dithered with pain.

Still I am alone in my apartment,

Waiting for you.